First off, it's a new adventure each day. If only there was a camera or automatic life recorder that had the capabilities of documenting the daily revelations and challenges. That could be both frightening and convicting- but nonetheless enriching!
From learning how to time manage and what a normal sleeping pattern is, to the anthropomorphic and theological truths, my brain seems to constantly be on overload. However, by His grace, that tank is continually expanding being able to hold more. It's only through the mercy of Jesus Christ that he has brought me to this place. We talked in class today about the talents the Lord gives us and the daily cross we are to bare. It's the adventure of a life time to sow back every blessing that He gives us and to bare the daily cross that we're called to. <-This understanding is just the beginning. All the things I've grown up learning about my Savior is starting to really take root and I pray earnestly for a fruitful harvest.
Some friends and I found ourselves caught up in quite the thought provoking conversation on the train ride back to school from our favorite coffee shop. What was the gist of the conversation? Turning in our baby food for meat. Sounds funny even typing it! However, this is exactly what we're here to do and this has become our longing and encouragement. So easily our Christian culture administers the watered down-cheap understandings of who The Lord is. People are always reading second and third hand concepts of who the savior is. It was a very frightening thought when we realized that we for so long did the same thing. We were spiritually depleted from the mal-nutrition of our relationship and connection to our savior- and didn't even know it. There's so many books. So many sermons. An abundance of "experiential worship methods". None of which are wrong- but when these things take priority over a hunger a revelating relationship with Christ, our spiritual bodies are being depleted; not truly receiving what it was made for. Therefore, we are taking a stance. We are exchanging the baby food for some meat and veggies- metaphorically. We're no longer taking the second hand truth of our savior from what other people are discovering, we will seek to discover it ourselves. Our God is so beyond our understandings yet He sent his own son to to die that we may seek Him and draw near to Him as He reveals himself to us. Running hard after all of who He is. Taking big bites of real truth. Allowing Him to reveal himself to me, not a second hand understanding.
It's going to be alot to chew. Exhausting, surely, and at moments I may go into nutritional shock from the extreme change. However, I will pursue Christ because He pursues me. His word is true and will not return void. From now on, living in such a way that there is no-esteem and only He is esteemed. Moody is just bringing these things about. Spiritually, relationally, emotionally, and intellectually- I'm ready. Ready to be radically wrecked by the completeness and all encompassing glory of YHWH!
The Lord has been bringing a lot back to the table today. He's been reminding me of the intentionality that is needed with each encounter that occurs throughout the day. Furthermore, the I'm reminded of the intentionality I need to have in my every moment He so graciously gives me. It's really been impressed upon my heart to truly live by the convictions He gave me last summer while I was in Central America. However true they were to me then, they ring even clearer through my soul this summer. I've even had a few added as I've been praying through these convictions. I long for Him to be truly glorified through this season and whatever the future may bring, so these are just the convictions He's given me to live by as I seek the fullness of His glory:
1. To start and end each day by spending intentional time with the Lord.
2. To read the Word as if my life depended upon it.
3. To pray selflessly, authentically, seeking His will believing He hears and answers.
4. To always count the blessings and recognize suffering.
5. To be a servant of all.
Am I going to be able to live by this perfectly? Not at all. But I believe that Romans is true when it says that the power which raised Christ from the dead actually lives in me and each professing believer. I will fail, but the Lord of victory will continue to have His way in my life the more I yeild to him. The song by All Sons and Daughters has been only replay because of this line, "tomorrow's freedom is today's surrender." What would life look like if we actually lived this truth?! We can find freedom from these chains of bondage if we surrender to Christ and the power of the cross today. Wow... so convicting.
As I go to school in less than a month I want to be alert to the spirit's leading. It's been put on my heart so heavily to really open my eyes and serve the city of Chicago. We are missionaries no matter where we are. I pray our class wouldn't just be "christians" wanting a bible education to do "good" things. I pray we will come together on a mission to share Christ's love in our time spent learning and serving in the suffering city. There is so much love that Christ wants to ravish in the war that's waging all around. If only we'd let Him love through us the way He loved us.
I like to talk.