First off, it's a new adventure each day. If only there was a camera or automatic life recorder that had the capabilities of documenting the daily revelations and challenges. That could be both frightening and convicting- but nonetheless enriching!
From learning how to time manage and what a normal sleeping pattern is, to the anthropomorphic and theological truths, my brain seems to constantly be on overload. However, by His grace, that tank is continually expanding being able to hold more. It's only through the mercy of Jesus Christ that he has brought me to this place. We talked in class today about the talents the Lord gives us and the daily cross we are to bare. It's the adventure of a life time to sow back every blessing that He gives us and to bare the daily cross that we're called to. <-This understanding is just the beginning. All the things I've grown up learning about my Savior is starting to really take root and I pray earnestly for a fruitful harvest.
Some friends and I found ourselves caught up in quite the thought provoking conversation on the train ride back to school from our favorite coffee shop. What was the gist of the conversation? Turning in our baby food for meat. Sounds funny even typing it! However, this is exactly what we're here to do and this has become our longing and encouragement. So easily our Christian culture administers the watered down-cheap understandings of who The Lord is. People are always reading second and third hand concepts of who the savior is. It was a very frightening thought when we realized that we for so long did the same thing. We were spiritually depleted from the mal-nutrition of our relationship and connection to our savior- and didn't even know it. There's so many books. So many sermons. An abundance of "experiential worship methods". None of which are wrong- but when these things take priority over a hunger a revelating relationship with Christ, our spiritual bodies are being depleted; not truly receiving what it was made for. Therefore, we are taking a stance. We are exchanging the baby food for some meat and veggies- metaphorically. We're no longer taking the second hand truth of our savior from what other people are discovering, we will seek to discover it ourselves. Our God is so beyond our understandings yet He sent his own son to to die that we may seek Him and draw near to Him as He reveals himself to us. Running hard after all of who He is. Taking big bites of real truth. Allowing Him to reveal himself to me, not a second hand understanding.
It's going to be alot to chew. Exhausting, surely, and at moments I may go into nutritional shock from the extreme change. However, I will pursue Christ because He pursues me. His word is true and will not return void. From now on, living in such a way that there is no-esteem and only He is esteemed. Moody is just bringing these things about. Spiritually, relationally, emotionally, and intellectually- I'm ready. Ready to be radically wrecked by the completeness and all encompassing glory of YHWH!
I like to talk.